My husband neglcts my sexual needs

by Mimi
(Tunisia)

Salam

Let me start from the beginning .when I was younger I didn't have any type of friendship with boys apart from being school or work colleagues.

I was very shy a-sociable and not very self confident. As a child I was raped at several occasions by a relative.
I have never told anybody about it.
It's the first time i speak about it as it is really embarrassing. As an escape I used to masturbate, which provided me not only with temporary relief but also with feelings of guilt and shame especially that it is considered as a sin in my religion. Prayers didn't seem to comfort me.

Now I am a wife and a mother of 3 kids. Me and my husband have the same full time jobs. We didn't marry because we loved each other but because he was the most suitable one who asked for marriage.

I thought that all my problems will be solved as marriage will provide me with privacy and intimacy and independence from my parents control. However marriage is not the heaven.

I soon discovered that my husband doesn't satisfy my needs not because of health matters but because he masturbates many times a day. He never tells me nice things and rarely does he asks me to have asexual intercourse.

When we make love - once 4 or 6 months- he gets a quick erection and during 8 years of marriage I got orgasm only twice.

Whenever I try to talk with him about it he listens to me but he says nothing.

I'm an attractive and well educated 30-year old woman sinking in depression.

Could you help me save my life?